一个小小的思念❤

我自己也感觉到意外..
我听着这首歌..我哭了..
做工的时候偷偷流眼泪..
就是因为一首歌..五月天的[突然好想你]
下午没事做..开歌听..结果就这样勾起一年前的回忆..
也就这样眼睛开始感觉有泪水..再想想现在..
眼泪就这样流了下来..
可以告诉我为什么吗？

想念如果会有声音..
而那个声音要是是你的声音的话..
是多么的好..可以每天听到你的声音..
而回忆是一把最锋利的刀..
往往都是向你的胸口..你的心..
开多一刀 :(

曾经

那些曾经..那些美好..今天回想起..

都想哭..不是我爱哭..

是真的很伤心..坚强不到..

我承认..但我不是脆弱..

我是真的真的很爱你..

有一个人说放下..我没完全放下..

但是有一个我很确定的..

我确确实实真的是忘不了..

我每天都在害怕..害怕你有一天被人喜欢..

更害怕你喜欢上别人..

真的害怕..害怕这个成了事实..

请不要 :(

Goodnite ❤

i found it..the tired of work and a tired of fun..
between this two have a different tired..
the tired of work is more tired than the tored of play..haha

what happen to me today..
i almost die at old street..damn..
very xin ku ><"
打嗝..go away la..
my heart like going to explosive..
TMD..damn hate this..

❤someone..i know u tired..
come back from a place..
finish a activity..
and rest more ya :)

累死我妈妈的儿子><"

wakao ei..睡不够已经够惨了啦..
昨晚看戏回到家都差不多要3点了..
今天早上一通电话来叫我吃早餐..
我电话都不接@@
真的是很Paiseh..哈哈
睡到十点起来准备做工..
做工爱睡又没有睡到..
脚又痛死人..妈的..
久没运动昨天早上球打下到要死掉..
今天就这里痛哪里痛..
悲剧..做工的时候脚跟我在痛..
也没办发..工还是要做..
星期六..以前读书的时候就很喜欢啦..
现在我每天在期待星期一到星期五@@
没什么人..今天人是干多..
又只有两个人做工..悲哀
还是过了..明早有人约我打球..
多数是没去的啦..
在家睡觉..累死人..
我一天二十四小时..
12小时半做工..上下的11小时半..
扣下睡觉七小时剩下4小时半是我私人时间..
时间不够用><""

Fast and Furious 6!!
真的是TMD好看..
还想再看XD
真的是太好看了..
The rock..and Dom..
两个muscle men..羡慕他们的身材@@
给我一半我就很开心了..哈哈
想不到那个女的死掉..男的是多么伤心..
到最后男的在Tokyo也死..
一定还有第7的..
我期待Fast and Furious 7!!XDD

Fast 6~~~!!!

I wan watch you lea!!
tomorrow night!!after i work..
no matter how tired..i wan watch you!!
11.40..i alrdy plan..
i am coming soon!!
wait me har..haha i booking u alrdy..

很boring lea!!!niabeh!!
有酒就好..喝给他倒!!
可以昏迷一个几十天更好!!
好让我休息下..累!!
喝给他死更好吧也许..

Samsung or Iphone?

I think about it..have a few weeks@@
i wan to by Samsung or Iphone..
either one..i like the Samsung because its screen large..
if play game or online..very stoy..
but its going to lag faster than Iphone..
Iphone the one i dislike is screen small@@
haha..mayb i old ady..lao hua yan XD
need to choose the screen big one..
when i working i keep think this problem..
And lastly .i did the decision today!
i choose Iphone..because its tahan lama than Samsung..
although its screen small.. bo huat lor..
accept the true..haha
i working now..earn the money myself.
i buy myself..no spend my family money..
this month i really mo take money with my family..
i go out..go whr..all spend the money myself..
feel good XD
no need depends on my family..
but if i go study..sure wan take v them ady@@
haiz..work get money..study for future ba :)
fight it!!

woo!!this afternoon i received sumthing from my best friend nicole!!XDD
so touching lea..hahai wna to thanks you at here..
and i wont forget you..u are my best friend too..
we waiting u come back :D

20 May=520

有一年这样就过去了..
520也就是我爱你..
表面上对我现实生活中是没有什么特别..
但是如果说在我感情世界..
是有很大的意义..也就是我爱你..
属于你和我的世界..现在不知道跑到宇宙那里一个角落了..
如果..我说的是如果..
没有任何意外..你和我都一起度过两次的520..
但是事实就是跟如果相反..两次都不是..
一次都没有..在我内心里..我度过了两个月多的520..
因为有你在我生边的每一天..每一天都是520..
自从你走后..你离开后..
我的世界5已经没有520了..
即使是日历上的520..也对我毫无意义..
没有意思..因为都是一个人过..
没有你的陪伴..就算这个世界能让我活到一千岁.
以前次的520.都还是普普通通的一天..
今天IU不懂做工的时候..都可以做到没有Mood..
那个头脑不懂再想什么大便.
自己有口都说不出..
这就是所谓的悲剧..haiz...
emo了又有谁知道？不如找周公谈？..
晚安吧..祝你有个美梦..

如果有如果

如果你能给我两分钟的时间..

我什么都不做..我只希望你能听我说一些事..

我真的希望那个有一天..有那样的机会..

让我告诉你些事情..没有任何目的..

那也不是任何借口..那些都是真相..

现在我知道我没机会告诉你..

也还不是机会..但是我真的希望会有那么一天..

那么一次机会..你给我几分钟时间..

让我说出一切..

至于结果..我也希望我得到我想要的啦..

但是我要求也不多了..

每一次想起以前的一切..

每一次都会有眼泪的出现..

原来最痛的致命伤是回忆:)

Headache..eat two panadol and sleep..

feel going sick soon~~~

jiayou ba ah huang :)

期待 :)

是不是有了期待时间才过得快啊？
我很期待这个星期六..从上个星期开始就一直倒数..
因为我有得休息一天..不用做工..!!哈哈
我已经plan好了我星期六要做什么了..
一整天的行程满满啊..
跟朋友喝茶..去剪头发..去吃晚餐..去买东西..
一天的时间就这样用完了..
时间深的很不够用叻@@
哪里的啊long有得借时间的..
我不要钱..我要的是时间..
哈哈..搞笑@@
可是一点都不好笑><"
睡觉去..没明天还是做工的一天..
晚安 :)

再给我两分钟是:D

突然间..爱上这首歌..

周杰伦的 最长的电影❤

歌词很有意思..
再给我两分钟..让我把记忆结成冰..

别融化了眼泪你妆都花了..要我怎么记得..

记得你叫我忘了吧 记得你叫我忘了吧..

你说你会哭不是因为在乎❤

我真的好爱听歌..每次很像听出我的故事..

他了解了我..哈哈

如果可以我想到海边的地方好好吸下新鲜空气..

我真的很累很累很累..

压力..好想好好的放轻松什么都不去想..

几时才会有那一天啊？

Two important day :D

11/5 舍不得的好朋友 :(

又一个好朋友离我们而去了..

我们之间有很多回忆..这些年..这些友谊..

昨晚也许是我今年最后一次跟你见面了..

过了昨晚你就离开了..

昨晚我招你出来..11.30喝茶..说真的是有点迟了..

但是你还是答应了咯..因为你也知道以后也许没什么机会了..

10多个朋友再一次就坐在yobel 24小时哪里..

一起大炮..聊的多开心啊..这些有再一次写进了我的记忆..

变成了History!!哈哈

我招你出来..但是我看到你我突然说不出话来.

突然之间脑子里面一片空白..

像个哑巴说不出话..也许是太多人的关系..

我不敢说..你还问我为什么今天那么静的..

我什么都没说..就在那里傻笑了@@

我很抱歉没在你离开前给你一些难忘的回忆..

他们给你了惊喜..你也感动到哭了起来..

你们一起哭了..我没参与..因为我有工要做..

真的很sorry..你也是在我好朋友的list里面..

虽然我朋友有很多..但是很多都是娱乐的朋友..

真心的却不多..你是真心的其中一个!!haha
昨晚我一点多回家..才要回家start车的时候..

直接下起大雨..慢慢的走回家..应该是我史上驾过一次最慢的车><"
路几乎都看不见..危险到..

回到家第一个时间还是面子书..不过开下就关了..

就进房间..写信息给她..哈哈
跟她说了好多心里话..不说我都睡不着..

写到很长..比我SPM华语考试的还长啊..

写到电话没电@@ 死都要send出去先..

send了就拿去charge然后去睡觉了..

不懂做么昨晚那么迟了..我做工累了还是翻来翻去睡不着..

很不自在..不懂是不是舍不得一个好朋友离去的关系吗..

我们之间有很多回忆..你真的是我的好朋友..
现在是永远都是..记得我们的约定XD

你家虽然有钱..但是你的性格却不像有钱人的性格..

你对别人也不会有偏见..我真的没后悔认识到你..

GoodBye my friends..Nicole Lee

Take care at Aus..all the best..and stay pretty..

keep more leng lea..come back show us :D
we will miss you..wait me change phone i will wechat u ..haha
i will stay at BANGLASIA wait u..
see you soon..Take care ^^

这张是去年在学校的时候拍的..

我们不懂扮还说呢么鬼pattern出来..

我的样子很搞笑吧..哈哈
这也是我们的回忆一部分..

wakakakak!!!

这张是新年的时候拍的..

我们一起赌博..我做庄家..

结果你们都输了给我XD

不要小看botak的力量hor..

我希望明年还可以赢你的钱:D

12/5 happy Mother Day!!

叫我在妈妈面前说母亲节快乐我都说不出@@

我真的不敢讲..这18年来我都没做到什么..
但是什么都可以等..就是孝顺不可以等..

所以我决定好了..也跟姐安排了..

等她星期六回来.我带你去吃一餐好的..
我请客!!hahaXD

妈..祝你生体健康 长命百岁..

我的日子不能没有你..

I love you MUM

that is FAIR?!

为什么这个世界充满着许多不公平？
谁可以告诉我..
我真的好累好累..为什么现今的社会什么都讲钱？
没钱真的生存不下去..
我真的对这一切感到疲倦..
我真的很想坐下来松口气..
甚至想离开这里..去到一个没人认识我的地方..
还是让我去个地方能让我忘记这里的东西..
让我轻松下..为什么？！！！！
我真的累得好想大哭一场..
我的心累得根本不像一个男人..
在这个世界上根本没人知道我的痛苦..
甚至是我的家人..
家人是我最亲的人了..
难道我只能什么事都收收着在心里吗?
是否有人可以出来陪陪我..
我真的好想大哭一场..
压力+烦恼+孤独..我简直会慢慢崩溃..

如果我把心里的话说出来会不会有人相信那真的是事实？
会不会有人相信我的遭遇？
我这个家是非常的不平凡..
不要看外表..
在我们4个兄弟姐妹..我虽然排第二..
但是我敢肯定的说我的压力最大!!
这是不是长子所要承受的代价？
说啊!!告诉我啊!!
我所做的一切我只想让我自己开心到底有没有人明白？
我现在真的崩溃了..眼睛流这泪水..那些泪水不是伤心..
而是压力跟烦恼..........
我的心情坏透了!!BITCH!!

为什么我就是有那一科好的心.
总是为了别人想..却没为自己好好想过..
对别人太好就是对自己残忍..而是双倍的残忍..
我不想再理会任何事情.从现在开始,
你们等着看吧..

That why i did :)

18 years old..i m no a child..
i m a teenager..and many thing i need to decide myself..
i m no going to college faster because i need money..
earn myself..buy somethings for myself..
my home no rich..just poor..
i tell  my fren my home no rich..
why nobody will trust wat i say??
just a few..know what happen my home,..
this home..this family..
i m not complaining..that is my destiny..
maybe someone wont understand..
i no blaming him/her..
because mayb he/she dunknow better..
that is my home business..
others dunknow is good..
and i will face it alone..
without who..without who..without who..
just have I..just have me..just have myself :)

MAGIC!!

Malaysia...OPSSS~~~
not Malaysia..is Banglasia!!
this country i live so famous..but i dun think that is a good new..
Najib..where the magic u learn from??
can teach me?i wan make some money lea..
Pleaseeeeeeeeeee lar..!!

投票到一半突然可以停电?
有电了..多出八带投选票？
你真的是厉害..中国刘谦都没有你出名现在..
我真的对你感到羞耻..
以后我出国人家问你我你那里来的..
我都不敢回答I come from Malaysia!!
Fucker u!!
现在我国是最红了..rasuah什么都有..
taiwai的新闻都有啊..你讲你没去好莱坞拍电影,,'
真的是浪费人才!!

BN..死远点啦..如果这一次无法改变事实..
五年后..2018年..当我23岁..我一定会去投出我神圣的一票..
我们90后的..一定支持民联!!
UBAH! niama..fuck BN..!!

Disappointed.!.

Fuck!!Wat the hell..NAJIB!!BN..
all go hell can?can let our country become beautiful and clean?
use dirty to win the election?!
can dun lie all Malaysian?
or u go other country better..
ask BANGKALA come vote ?
this also can?so shame to you..
thanks u make Malaysia more famous!!
dirty country?
now u are happy..
use dirty to win the election..STEADY lar..
gv u a like enough ma?or 100 like?!

关键在国会仪席..BN在1.40am..
已经拿到了112仪席..民联62..
total是222席.怎样玩下午？
手头没筹码了..
虽然我是还没地投..但是我发誓..下一届..
2018年..我一定会报名..我一定会投出那一票..!!
o0o 凸 mlm .l.
严重鄙视你！！BN..

first time ever!!

congratulation to myself..to my colleague..
because of election..damn it..
the time is now!! change !!UBAH!!!
ini kalilah UBAH!!
all segamat peoples come back from other place..
prepare tomorrow vote!!
beside that..it cause us busy like hell..
first time ever i saw.i meet..when i work at old street..
really!still have first round and second round..haha
first round all come eat steamboat de..@@
second round all come high tea..LOL..
just 3 waiter..macam mane serve?
i keep sweat in the room..have a 5马力air cond!
really steady!!
serve dao lai bu ji..
no clean yet..there call add soup or what..
pokai arh..hahahahahaha@@
rest early ba..tomorrow is a big day!!XD
MALAYSIA is going to change the new face!!!

part two!!XD

err..that have two possible..

i say sorry first..because aku sendiri muka tebal..

my feel tell me that was saying me..

the first possible is the status is not saying me..

if really not saying me..

i so hope i can know who is that guy..

i care this..i also dun know why..

i so care about this..

i know i so kepo..sorry ya..

the second possible is saying me :)

u wan to know the reason?

i can tell u right here..

i tell u a true..but i u must trust me wat i say at here..

please trust me..

i had two relationship before at last year form 5..

the first is you..the second i dun wan to say who she are..

that no important.

i observe myself and knw myself more and more from this..

i hurt the second girl..because i did a wrong decision..

i make it start..and i make it end..

actually i no love her..just got a little bit feeling only..

i using her to make myself forget you..

but its fail..i found myself cant forget you..

cant forget before our relationship..
everthing!!the feel between you and me..

i still cant forget now..

since i hurt the second one..

i swear i dunwan hurt anymore..

when at camp..no i am show off..

i tell u a true..

after the chinese new year off was gone..

valentine day..14/2..

we go back camp for continue out NS training..

second day..i receive a chocolate from a girl..

she live at muar..she ask her fren take to me..

when at my fren and many persons at live..

i reject her first time..but second time i take it..

i dunknow how to do..

just can take it..

if i no take i hurt that girl..

if i take that macam means i accept her@@

but when i know a true i so内疚..

she know i m no like her..and she cry at toilet..

no just one time..many time..all because of me..

but the NS going to end..i so how fst end it..

and left there..no need hurt her and more..

i no interesting at other girls..

friends say this no bad that no bad..

but i no interest at all..because i know it..

i no feel no love..dun wan go hurt others..

i choose single..i know wat i am doing..

i know wat my heart thinking about..

because i still loving someone..

that why i single..

i hope u know it..and i can swear at here..

100% true..no any lie..

and sorry :)

抱歉

very sorry..this two days din upload my blog..
because hor..this two days also go out with brothers..
he come back from NS..balik cuti..
tomorrow wan go back ady..
this two days..i feel tired..thiw two night also 2.30++ just back home..
then morning wake up shower then go work..
keep reply the things i do everyday..
last night go watched iron man 3..
watch the last round..
11.30pm.until 1.40 like that..then fetch someone go back bukit siput..
from bukit siput to simpang..a little bit far @@
haha..tired lor..so today i take off..
rest xia..keep work like that hor..no fun lea..
my 3 friends no work ady..they are going to study soon..
so every morning just i one people only..so sien..
use there computer online facebook><"

Go out soon..11pm now..
continue later..
DUN LEFT YAR!!!!haha
i have sumthing to say later ^^ BYE~~